ohayou

Yeah it's been quite calm lately, my report card came back with me obtaining a 3.8 GPA. enough for UC system, it's 3.6 unweighted, but i got cocky last tests and my math grade dropped. sucks. Anyways, I'd like to say, although it seems like im not listening 99%of the time, I really am, I was born a multi-tasker. I see to it you read this.
I like Logan and all, but he srsly needs to review some shit. I understand the reading is a must, but how can we understand if you fail to review, besides the fact our class is so stupid and I hate everybody in there that doodles and doesnt pay attention, cept a few. It pisses me off how, yes Logan tries, but no one appreciates his small effort. Is it logan's fault? yes, is it the class's fault ? Mostly. majority is the class. I'm also sad Michael switched out of 5th period Yom, He tries, I can tell.


Here is also my lame excuse that's suppose to convince you why I didn't go get ice cream, I had to do my astronomy project, (which is due on friday), (to which I haven't begun) so yeah I had to do my report for a while, I also needed to catch up on my chemistry, I needed to finish the european h. questions (which im done) and i need to study, (tomorrow). I also have my MESA project to do, (prelims in a week and i havent started), My AP exam form to fill, and need to catch up on my House episodes.

- I hope you buy that silly excuse finnie, and xiao. =)

Punk in Drublic

I totally been too involved in other stuff that I completely forgot I loved listening to Punk Rock or Metal and headbanging to the flow, makes me want to go to Guitar Center and pound the shit out of some drums. The restless flow of energy from punk just makes want you to bash your head back and front.

Yep, I have nothing interesting to say anymore, Ken ran for (sex)cretary for asian club, and he wanted "Change." and a lot of funny crap. The essay that came back today was a sweet 6/10. Why? because my thesis sucked, along with Kens, we all were in the 6/10 boat, but i figure we're like the only ones that can procrastinate and not fail horribly. Ugh I hate sitting in back of her. It's so annoying. Got desperate cause she wasn't getting her answers so just looks at my paper. Does not deserve the A or the better score. work your own god damn ass off., Hope you fail the AP exam. Srsly.

Anywho, Im too busying playing taiko !



I LOVE THIS GAME :]

The Funnys

Today at lunch, carlos grabbed me from behind and kept saying "OH IM IN THE MOOD KEVIN" and while grabbing me and touching me in the unmentionables (I call them burnt pepperoni slices) an administrator lady walks by and looks at us funny. I do a waving signal signaling her, "NO I DON'T KNOW THIS GUY" and run in shame.

Funny.

Astronomy

I have astronomy now with Sork. Pretty cool, 10 people in the class. Ms. Sork seems pretty cool even though she has a slight accent.

Am I Evil?

I stare upon society's complexity, and all the suspicious individuals within it. I'm starting to figure out there's more insensitive jerks out there than I previously thought. Other people putting other people down, it's fun to do so, but to some certain degree. So why bother to do it? To feel supremacy? Or just cause people are natural assholes. Supremacy has always something that lingered in American history. From World War 2, America is the only country that benefitted greatly from the millions of soldiers dead in that war,but after world war 2, America had one of the strongest army and was the first country to develop nuclear weapons. America always had that one country that opposed it, the Soviet Union (Russia) which then resulted in the Cold War which wasn't a war, but America trying to be more innovative and prove Russia they're the stronger ones. The end result? America is the most dominant country, period. Does that attitude still linger?


Why yes it does. If all else fails they'll put someone down, beyond the depths of the ocean. They must create the illusion they're supreme and more intelligent that of others. Which brings me to the point, does the culture of being on top of everything? Does the nice clothing, nice car and cocky attitude really worth it? Not really. There are some things they don't teach in school, such as morals & ethics. Do most people that have all that really the best? No. They have everything they want but they'll lack something they can't get. Living in America, of course you'll be exposed to people with the "we're better than you" attitude, and probably every day, and you just hate them. Within the school boundaries, there's a fog of superficial surrounded all of us. I can smell it too. It gets annoying, people trying to belong, people trying to impress, can't people create their own uniqueness. But does this make me a hypocrite? Yes it does. I despise all of this, yet I won't do a thing. Because I'm only one person, but I've realized all this. It takes a certain degree of knowledge to see past this, and no it's not worth it. I'm sure as hell will make some bad judgments but I'm aware of my bad judgments, I'm not ignorant, but sometimes I tell myself, if only I notice this sort of behavior, it gets to the point where you just feel like there's just too much of superficial. That you can't just help taking a bite, but resistance is everything. I'm just one person watching this, I figure I'm one of the few that notices, and I'm one of the few that talks to himself, and goes "will this ever end?" and just searching for the person out there that says "I agree."

Chapter 13

The infamous word people reoccuringly use the universal word, "love" . For a moment, I figured it has no meaning. It's been overused to the point where it loses all context in it's meaning. I remember reading the Giver and reminded of the fact that it had no meaning in that story. I guess I define "love" as that warm tingly feeling you get when you're "Emotionally attached to something.'' But I guess what it's composed of is trust. What is trust? Well, trust goes two ways, forward and back. Goodness, the feeling to be trusted is something I hardly experience but it feels great. It's this tingling feeling that warms you inside. Trust is valuable,
I'd take a cup of trust any day instead of petty materialism that everyone wants. It creates a bond between you and a person that's strong and unique. But the one thing that always stands in the way of trust is secrets. Oh, how I'd just love to let myself free and leave my mind to say what's always bothered me, I guess that's what we call a "best friend" these days. But I know I'm a fool. Sometimes I regret speaking my open mind, sometimes I say something I regret. I've always ruined an on-going trust build/bonding with my mouth, I get agitated because I let my mind wander. So from that, I learned to keep my mouth shut most of the time, till most of the time I have to let it out somewhere and probably when I do I feel a bit better but I just screwed myself and tha I say the wrong things at the wrong time. I guess it can be a curse at times. Wouldn't it be great if everyone for one day, said what everyone needed to hear?
I guess I love jumping to jumping to conclusions I'm a flawed person trying to trace my steps. I mean after all we are humans, Trial and error leads to success. Karma, bad luck and failure is nothing new of the sorts to me.
And among the midst of this period of my mind I heard the lyrics from a +44 song, "I'm scraped and sober and no one's listening." which gave me a mental smirk. It probably means, (to me) about a person who's beat himself up and (in this case) gotten sober, but he was an ignorant fool and lost everyone that gave a damn. Which makes me feel like I lack certain elements in life, like an empty hole in your "heart" that doesn't fill. How, I would give for a reassuring comment that it'll be fine, how sometimes you feel you're feeling quite lost and need directions but no one wants to give you a map or maybe most of the time you just need reassurance which can change plenty of times.
The path of life is undetermined, sometimes we find ourselves staring at a creepy black bottomless pit but too afraid to step in, because we naturally fear what we don't see or know, we're too afraid to leave our sanctuary, the area where we feel certain and at home. But be that as it may, I'm a chicken to advance.

Extra Bundled

I told my self , "you're working towards a goal here Kevin." you're past all the random profanity yelling across the hallways, fun times, but you got to try now. Try to make the best out of each day. I work hard, 89% of the time.But I hate people that are not working. They piss me off, why do THEY get to enjoy their life and still manage decent academics, while I work my ass off. I hate being surrounded by inconsiderate jerks. I know that we've all been told stories or tales of optimism, when I was young , i was told plenty of optimistic things, how that anything we believed we could do, what we could do would work and our abilities will guide us through, how if our mind, and good morals will lead us. But every year that progresses tears that petty belief that optimism will get you through down, and divides it in half. I guess eventually i'll reach the point where I don't believe in optimism, and that'll be the point where that optimistic belief is just an atom. Indivisible no more to me. Or maybe I've already hit the jackpot, I don't see the optimism. I know this is nothing, not much of a challenge I face now, it's only a sneak preview of the hardships in life everybody deals with. Maybe I'm just being too analytical, or maybe I'm the only one that notices, it's lonely in the times you just wonder and wonder. Everybody looks for the driving force to their motivation. Everything has something that keeps them going, I really don't have a goal but I guess it was just gut instinct for me to keep going and don't look back and when you've reached the finish line and decide where you're heading from there. I'm barely boarding my train, and the tunnel doesn't end soon, and oh yes, there will be terrorists along the way. Basically, failuire really doesn't seem to be an option, but you'll always have it as an option. Everybody's afraid of failing, it's easy to fail, but it's harder to pick up where you left out. I guess what a person would really hate feeling would be to finish your life knowing you didn't say what you wanted to say throughout your life. Does eventually everything we'd work so hard for, with the false hope of optimism all become a blur eventually?

Whiplash

I've led a very productive life, 95% of the time, denying, saying no, refusing, not obliging . But now I think a bit and tell myself, "if this were your last day to live" would you have made the same choice you did or answered what you answered."

Interesting day, Ken and carlos pulled a tissue stunt on Yom, where the staff went after yom for "4 tissue boxes" reminds me of the time I got detention for stealing tissue boxes, but then instead of me suffering for it, Ken gets the U in cooperation habits. It's really funny, He stole those boxes too, but I was holding like 5 boxes in public.
Which reminds me when I stole gluesticks, about 24-36 in total, mr.sonnen was throwing away all his junk and he put the gluesticks in the pile, and we're like "what the hell?! HOW COULD HE FUGGING DO THIS, so we took all the gluesticks and stuffed it in our bag. Then the next day he had more.I took another box of gluesticks. I still have them. So much unfortunate things happened to me today, cool. Nagaoka recommended I read Sophie's World because it's a book about philosophy which includes Euro, which he says "Will help us Euro students"
Just another wasted day.

Plain and Pointy

Well it rained mostly throughout all this week. Finals are over, cool. In a brief recap, We had a chapter 12-18 test for Wong's, resulting in my 30/35. Resulting my 0.4 drop of my 90.25 to a 90.21, still good. Logan's finals were pretty easy except I forgot everything, and things were stuck on the tip of my tongue, Because xiao sucks at chemistry, she relied on me ;D and got the last answer from Sandy and Shery, she was then rewarded with Pocky for her excellent answer copying and probably showing me 2-3 questions I was wrong about, (That's all you're going to correct me :] )
3rd period finals were speeches, mines was about the harmful effects of MSG, and I still get a bad grade. 75/75. I did not crack jokes, I did not give a smile, I gave the serious Bush face that he gives when he goes "America is fucked because we're out of money and so on" face. Lame, Humans by nature are too stupid and don't realize things before it's too late. Took Global Warming too long to notice, and I'm pretty sure they don't notice the obesity either. 4th period finals were pretty tiring, Which I won't mention or I'm going to remember that I'm sore. 5th period finals, sucked. I forgot the inverse/outverse variations of x and y. which was y = k/x or y= k times x, and I just didn't study. But they were confusing, and I stopped at number 70, *but our scantron started at 21* but it was up to question 90, and so knowing me, I did 20 questions in 9-12 minutes. Thankgoodness they were easy. 6th period finals were the worst, Answer 100 computer questions, about 50 true or false, and the others multiple choice. In the end create a excel worksheet/graph and create a flyer. Tiring.


Now to share a depressing story. My mom doesn't trust me with knives, every time I wash knives, "DON'T WASH THEM I'LL WASH THEM" But I wash them anyways because I'm rebellious like that. It's either the fact I've walked red lights by accident in her presense, the fact that I broke the water dispenser thing and water wouldn't stop coming out from the dispenser and flooded the kitchen, the fact that I put a magnet horseshoe on the tv, and the tv became all funny colored, or the fact I once went home with a stranger in 2nd grade because I forgot to tell my parents it was an early day and it was raining and I started crying because no one picked me and millions of other things I'm not sure which one of those is the reason she doesn't trust me. But my dad trusts me with knives.. I believe. But the point is, everytime she tells me to cut something with scissors, I use a knife, to the point where I was cutting my noodles with a knife (because they were endlessly long noodles) So I guess it's like this, I'm the sheep in the sheep pack that wanders off the pack and meets a rabbit and then the sheep pack looks for me and ends up finding me and a rabbit.
I also noticed due to the recession, Instant noodles have less noodles in them, along with every other instant to eat thing.

Anthem

Once again I must express my undying love for google. I love google and it's Knol of Knowledge.

Morning Wood Times

Anyways, in 5th Michael was telling me in 5th he doesn't take off his shoes when he comes home. So then we asked every other Mexican in the room if they took off their shoes. They said nope, then I was like Holy shit. you kidding me? Then I was wondering if they slept with their shoes on, or showered with their shoes on. I'm in uncontrollable awe. I feel like.. "Eureka" Why do they not take off their shoes.. Damn crazy.. So Mr.Yom had acid reflux disease and now has horrible pain in his back. I was looking forwards to no finals.
we took our chapter 19-21 test, and I scored 27/30 So happy. my grade is a 90.25. I'm stricken with shock and awe.
Right now, im drinking Vita Chrysanthemum Tea. The Sugary kind ;D

Peace Sells

Evidently it's finals week, I'm not interested. I have much to work for, oh wait.. working doesn't work for me. This society is too oppressive, blasphemy, wish we had better people. Anyways I flip to page 552 and I see a heroic sexy man in a nice military vest, and that's Napoleon. I never knew he was such a man. Who knew paintings could be so vivid and detailed from the 18th century. Anyways, I guess tonight I'm going to be mentally studying, just reviewing what I remember. Euro tests, Euro final, Chem Finals, English test to retake, English finals, Algebra 2 Finals, Great times.




Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay - The Beatles - Yesterday
I'm tired I'm tired I'm I'm tired, Nothing keeps me sane. Just leave.