I need to see. I need thrill. I need adrenaline. I need amusement. I need spontaneous adventures. I need a damn car. I need a fucking adventure pal.

Golfing is actually harder than it looks. Sorry Tiger, you don't have an easy job after all.

Damn, some women just know how to make a man feeeel good.

A very summery update

I've been trying to stay mellow in this increasingly sweaty summer. I haven't really been able to find much to do. I had a vast pool of creativity that I wanted to dig into prior to summer, but now it seems that pool is dried up. My source of creative juice probably evaporated when.... the other day while I was playing my guitar and I broke my A string.. Then I spent 30 minutes taking out the screws on my guitar saddle to remove the broken string. Now I can't play it until I replace them. =(

I always have a habit of leaving my guitar next to my clock stand. I remember when the whole band (Andrew, Rene, Steven and me) were rehearsing for the Banquet, I left my bass at school all the time. So every day I'd coming home and look at the empty clock stand and go "Oh shit! It's at school.."

On a side note, I think I'll start on my personal statements soon, something around this summer. Gotta get those creative juices flowing. I actually think it'll quite fun. Basically, I have to describe my life up to this point, in 1000 words or less. Heheh.
1000 words.




I feel like writing up a political/semi-philosophical post soon.

- A comment response to an article about the best high school in America.
Original article.

http://www.newsweek.com/2011/06/19/the-best-high-schools-in-america.html




"This is so typical. A group of SELF-PROCLAIMED "experts," using arbitrary standards created by them, presumes to judge every high schol in the country. First, these are NOT experts. They are a bunch of intellectual eggheads who haave no real world experience, and have totally immeresed themselves in abstract theory. Next, the SAT is a money making scam job, that has become entrenched in the educational landscape. The only thing the SAT measures is how well a student takes the SAT. With all of the "coaching" (cheating), SAT scores, even if they were legitimate are grossly inflated. AP/IB programs are a made-up edifice to pad resumes - they are also inflated. Look at the quality of graduates these days - remedial courses in college, can't read, etc. This with all of this fraudulent grade inflation, the "testing" industry, etc. Now compare that to the past - Issac Newton took no SAT, no AP or IB, no grade inflation... Thomas Jefferson, Albert Einstein, Marie Curie, etc. They did far greater things without all of these ARTIFICIAL CONSTRUCTS, and certainly without the advice of so-called "experts." I REJECT this idiotic list, nor do I recognize any oif these morons as experts. You want reality, read John Taylor Gatto and other such authors who have been there."

I couldn't agree more. Isaac Newton did not take an SAT and look what he has accomplished.

INCUBUS - earth to bella pt 1 - (light grenades 2006)

I learned how to play this song! and then i broke my god damn A string.

Someday you gotta find another way, you better right your mind
and live by what you say
Today is just another day unless you set your sights and try to find a way
I say fuck authority
Silent majority
Raised by the system
Now it's time to rise against them
We're sick of your treason
Sick of your lies
Fuck no, we won't listen
- pennywise

my current anthem of the moment.

Summer Bucket List

not a comprehensible list.  this is a bucket list, or more like things to do before summer ends.
I think its better to list your goals during an extended period. Just so you don't leave anything out in the dark.

- I want to get ice cream with my blog pal. Long overdue.
- Bunch of songs I want to learn (or master) to play on the guitar.
       guitar solo for stairway to heaven
       theme of love - final fantasy IV          <--- top my list.
- K- fucking BBQ.
- ball it up with the homies. 
- see L.A as much as I can.
- drive derive drive.
- watch that korean drama (e_e)
- get a bike (perhaps)
- read some good fucking novels.
- relax, stay cool, live.
- read walden <-- HAHAH.
- see the ocean.
- load up my iPod
to be continued..

"If a man makes a mistake.........and a woman is not there to judge him, is he still wrong? "


         - Nagaoka-isms.

Tiesto - Adagio for Strings (HD, Best & Longest* Version on Youtube!)

Sick ass version of Adagio for Strings.
Pretty long mix, but Tiesto is too good.

      What a wonderful year. I've met new people, moved farther away from people, known people better, and so it's a wild ride. I can will not say whether it was a good or bad year. I feel that at the end of it all, a year will always be closely balanced between the best of it all, and the worst of it all.
      The most major thing I've learned this year would probably be expectations. Expectations, they are a terrible curse a person can have. It's a wonderful burden on some days. Maybe not on others.


But that's how it is in this world. You have your expectations running through your head, and the reality rolling against your eyes.


      but off to another year. here it goes. one more.

You know life is fucking good when you eat ice cream for breakfast.

Wow I just took my SAT 2's! I think I got major fucked. This was the most thinking I've done in like...a month.

The Math SAT 2 wasn't too bad..but...jesus. I was so rusty from not doing math for so long..the first 20 questions were alright, then they asked me questions about geometry and formulas I forgot..oh god...

and then.. for the US History exam.. They asked so many about Native Americans. I'm sorry, no offense to the Native Americans, great people that endured suffering but, I really don't give a fuck about you guys in US!! They're all these damn little details about natives that I don't ever. Gah.

and there goes my 800s..

Utopia

          I can only write well when I'm feeling motivated. And I am feeling motivated right now.

         Another year is basically over. 5 years ago, I would never expect myself to be in this position, to know this much, to know myself this much. I think it's always so much easier to know about other people rather than yourself. Maybe the most interesting things to do in life is to find out what really drives you.
         I feel that in society, we live under much expectations, sometimes they're good expectations. But sometimes you lose track of what your goals and desires are because other people's goals intertwine with your own, and eventually your life pursuits are pushed deeper into an empty closet to be examined later.
       But I don't think all of us (or most) get the chance to ever examine them again.The closet becomes stuffed with ideas and dreams just waited to be lived. And our living room? Filled with other people's expectations, not your own. I know it's not perfectly possible to always focus on yourself, but it's always some sort of logical balance we should always try to obtain. It's not a perfect world after all, and I think if the world was perfect, I'd be absolutely horrified. People would be robbed of all their ideals, why work hard is the world was perfect? You don't need to. Why would we need religion? We wouldn't because the world is perfect. It's the imperfectness of the world that drives everyone at the end of the day; it makes us work to cover up blemishes of imperfection.


Besides if it were a perfect world, we would achieve all our dreams before we died-- but it's not. Sometimes, and I say sometimes, those dreams die with us.