To be completely honest, there's just been a total disconnection of my states of mind, spirit and body as of late. 3 parts that should work in riveting harmony are now far from unison. I've tried to stay mentally alert, physically fit, and emotionally sound for the longest. And whenever one part of me goes off, that's okay. The two parts of me will somehow, and willingly force the third one back to equilibrium. But everything is just so off as of late. It's unusual for me to be like this.
         Nowadays, even if all 3 of my states should align, one little shock will  throw everything into chaos and confusion--leaving me in paranoia. I can't stand the night or being alone. I can't stand being engulfed in my thoughts. I'm a prisoner of my own damn thoughts. They creep up on me and just devour whatever composure have.

But I'm trying to keep the boat a float.