The End of The Line

Fucking shit, so school starts in two days, and im doing horrible. I have classic anxiety symptoms. Too much stress. No one listens. Which is the only reason im blogging. Anxiety makes you feel like shit, its fucking false alarm up your ass. You feel like your going to "Die". Literally. You feel so fucking alone and all this nutty shit. I cant catch a fucking breath and need to take a deep breath every so fucking often. what else to bitch about. Friends dont really help, they just use you for a common reason, until you need their help, and bam, they bail on you. all this fucking impending doom and shit. Why couldnt I Have atleast one more week to get ready, I cant go to a school with a shattered personality, and shattered thoughts. Gee,this is tough going alone. What is my purpose in life, I've always wondered. ugh, I need some mellow music like coldplay. What if my brain will forever be stuck in panic attack. Life's tough, you wonder too much, Will I post on the first day ? Most likely I will. If my anxiety problem resides after the first day of school or that week. Maybe i'll even post every day for high school. But I dont know. Im just hoping to meet some nice, new people. Fuck you Auto save, dont fail on this shit i''ve typed. Why do i feel like I have a heart problem. In a bad and frightening situation, What do I have ? well, the mystery begins.