I actually feel pretty damn pumped up to jam tomorrow at the Banquet. I probably don't even realize there's going to be a sea of people watching, but I'm going to go out there, have fun, and kick some ass.

           


besides, i like tacos, and I would love to eat some.

       I seriously am so lazy at the end of the year. I haven't done much of anything productive lately...sad to say. In fact, I'm pretty to lazy to blog right now too... but yeah.

 i just wanted to update my loyal viewers (lol)

Walden

    At the beginning of the year, before I even took Nagaoka's AP English Class, everyone who was taking his class as well was under the pretense we weren't going to pass the English exam. All the comments from previous classes said that he wasn't a good teacher, blah blah blah. But I find it kind of funny, he is a mediocre teacher, but he always emphasized that we should not lose sleep over an exam or class, nor should we take as many of those classes as possible. But it's true, the current college entrance requirements are kind of pointless.

      And it makes sense, what is even the purpose of taking so many AP classes of them? I know it's because either
     a) everyone else is doing them
     b)  without any of them, you won't get into a "decent college"
     c) both   
But it's not fair, what about those people that take 6 AP classes and pass them all while probably only enjoying one of them? How far do they even get? Bill Gates took none and made Microsoft. Fucking crazy.
        I used to be under the illusion that the more AP classes you take, the better. It was a naive and very stupid idea. (But thank god all the ones I took I enjoyed)

  What I'm getting at is that, why should people sacrifice self-happiness to appeal to colleges? Why should we take a bunch of classes that we don't enjoy to appeal to a bunch of white clad suits whose student's future rests upon their hands. I think college to me, sounds like a really ideal place meet and learn, but I just find that the way to get there is so fucking stupid.
  
    For example, I find the SAT Reasoning test completely useless. In society, it's usually branded as an IQ test, but it's not. It's a ridiculous test that measures nothing. The Writing section of the test asks nit-picky questions regarding English that hardly any American-person knows instinctly. All people born in the country speak informally and probably don't know the mechanics of the language. But why should that judge a person's ability?  Does a person that scores 2400 have a better chance than someone that scores 2000? Probably not. And all those SAT classes that have sprung up to prepare students for the test? Just another way to cash in on people's insecurities of scoring low. They may work, but the price for these schools are just ridiculous.

      There is a difference between hard work and torturing yourself. Hard work is doing a task can be done but requires more effort, torturing yourself is just doing something because you're forced to do it but you hate the hell out of it. Hard work is spending the extra time making your dinner tastier, while torture is spending the extra time making dinner for your boss--- whom you hate.

  I won't lose sleep over what I scored on the AP English exam (although I felt pretty kick ass on it) I won't let it cloud my mind [However I personally like English]. If you put in all you could and scored a 1, then there's nothing you can do about it. It's funny because I finally truly realized this after Nagaoka kept repeating it, I always had fragments of these ideas, but sometimes I felt it was  just me being lazy to do things I didn't like. But it's true, why should I lose sleep doing things I don't enjoy doing. Life is short, I don't want to die knowing that I wasted half my life working for some idiot and wallowing in misery because I should have quit my job earlier. It's true sometimes in life you might have to appeal to people briefly, but you should never let them take complete charge, you should always be able to retain individual happiness.


do what you love doing and eff the rest.

Fender Squier Stratocaster Affinty Guitar [Metallic Black]

I'm expecting this in 5-8 days. My passion.

      I hope the band pulls through. We don't have a legit singer for Everlong or When you were young, I'm a bit worried we wont make it in time for the banquet. We put a lot of time in it, but  we stupidly made the mistake of practicing without a vocalist.





      We're going for all the wayyyyyyy

good times to come.

       I think sometimes I should erase everything that had to do with you, for my thoughts are toxic tumors, they don't really serve much but to drain me of my vitality, and maybe even an ounce of hope.

but we keep pressin'

  I'm so glad I finished the damn AP exams. All along they were a drag to think about and a complete drag to study for. Pass or not, I can finally enjoy on whats going on. I felt decent on Calculus, felt really good on US History, and pretty decent as well. Maybe I'll pass them all.

     So in preparation for the Banquets (SGS and Magnet) Me, Steven, Andrew and Rene have been jamming after school. I honestly think it's going pretty well. Of course I feel the timing is gonna kick all our asses. We've almost got Everlong down, working on space truckin, and going to do when you were young. Since my Bass is at school, (and i dont want to bring it back and forth) I FEEL SO DEVOID.  Every now and then when I'm taking a break from homework, I'd just get my bass guitar and start playing some tunes, but now since its at school, ahhhh. I keep looking at the corner to where i normally find my bass and see it empty :'(


soon, baby, we will be reunited. :)

Every now and then I hate good songs that get ruined because they remind me of someone.  

       Shiiit, Calc exam tomorrow. I feel so ready and not ready at the same time. However, part of me just wants to blaze through that shit and it get over with, but yeah of course I want to kick some ass.
It is also blazing hot and I don't want to do anything. I probably shouldn't review much more, I should just kick back and relax at this point. 

I can't wait till these 2 weeks are over. Much things to do after the exam.

-work out again every day (has been too long neglected)
- jam with the band before the banquets.
- chill out
- basketball fo'sho
- eat ice cream.

and much more..