I tell myself I'm going to do my homework and not sit around on the computer.



and then i end up on the computer. lovely.

dl/dx

Well I cleaned out parts of my bookshelf and room and I discovered a bunch of things:
1) 16 years worth of memories are stored in my room. Just so much, I couldn't believe everything that was in there. All I ever saw on the outside were things 2 weeks, 3 weeks worth of stuff, but after I kept pushing and unraveling, I found so many things that I used to see. Every trinket or item had a story to it. Pretty fulfilling. I originally planned to clean my room, but I just gt curious and started reading things and past papers. It was good. I'll leave it at that.
2) My winter break first week is already done. Pointless to point out, but why not? I like doing nonsensical countdowns to a blurry school year.


I should make a New Years Resolution.

I want to shoot some hoops. Maybe when the puddles are gone.

My first week of winter break is (nearly) over, and I'll sum up what I did this week. Nothing productive. But I can't really do anything anyways since its raining.

Yeah, I like the rain. Always have. It was just something I've never really complained about other than not being able to do "dry" activities. But the weather in my opinion, is reflective of my mood. I feel pretty out of sync and indifferent to most things (except eating) and all I do is stare at the calendar. I see the 18th go by, 19th, 20th, all pass by,and I realized I am getting old. Not old physically, (16 would be very old during the time of the Black Plague) but old mentally. Personally, I feel like I'm losing the kid perspective, the stuff I told myself I'd never lose. When I was younger I always remembered my own birthday, but my parents never remembered their own. It didn't make much sense to me to forget. But now kind of understand. A birthday is just a birthday. Nothing special. It's less of an important celebratory event and more of just another typical day as you get older.. And it really does make sense, you're still obliged to pay taxes and work during your birthday (I suppose if you take a sick day) but that is the truth.

Of course, I'm not getting too philosophical or anything. I'm just saying the plain truth. This might or might not apply to everyone, but it probably does apply to most.

As for now, I'll just enjoy the rainy weather while it lasts.

Been spending my vacation day playing World of warcraft and left 4 dead 2. It's a break from school, definitely what I need.



But it still feels wrong. I should be productive to say the least, but to be honest, I'm just trying to get away from reality.

Dear,

To my faithful readers (as if) that have been trying to keep up (supposasbly) Many things have occurred as of late. Many changes have been going on that are quite unpleasant. For starters, I've to have some class changes due to the fact of budget cuts, and changes in teachers. How annoying.

Anyways, rainy day today. I think I'll remember today. Kind of interesting.

Winter break is finally here (Oh yes!) Will finally do all the FUUUUUCKING THINGS I WANTED TO DO.


:) Lost my 3rd though..

HP dv7t

I love my new computer.
17.3" widescreen beast.
Intel Core i7 720QM 1.73 GHz stock. 2.93 w/ turbo boost?
ATI Radeon Mobility 5650 1 Gig Dedicated.
Windows 7.


still some stuttering issues with my computer when playing certain games.

Yup, saw her again today, didn't know what to say. I tell myself I'm going to go up there and strike up a casual conversation.

Mindset

I honestly never believed people when they said, "a simple smile can brighten someone's day." Well to me, it looked like everyone's smile was just a smile. No difference between this and that smile. Not really anything special here. But today, I stand corrected. At the library, I went to check out Schlinder's List (ironic timing because I didn't get the 35 pts for Oliver Twist for the AR) and I put Oliver Twist in the drop hole for returned books. But they didn't scan it off. So the librarian told me to find Oliver Twist so she could scan it off. After I found it, I sort of "cut" everyone, seeing as how I was in line first but just strayed off to get Oliver Twist.

And then I saw her, who shan't be named.

The librarian apologized to her because I cut her. She was in line waiting to check out a book, and then I glanced over, and here it was. A sincere warm smile. It made my day.

keep the car running