When the sun sleeps

I think too much, not as much do as things happens. Somewhere on this cold stony earth, perhaps contains an answer. I really never needed much, I was never interested in the materialism much, I don't need it. But what's the point if you don't have anything else. Maybe being alone is great, but being alone for the rest of your life seemingly all the time is emotionally draining. I know its true, I'm always left with no one. Maybe this was meant to happen. maybe this was not.Then eventually you realize that there's nothing for you here. Every person I chose to trust because I believed I could, and I probably can but the smoking gun is..they never need me neither do they want to confide me. I realize my existence itself isn't that significant either. They'll dispose me whenever they want, they just haven't. I always wondered why, I never found out why. It has always been like that, people come and go. For others, that isn't the case, its come and stay, and it's always so sad. That's how it ends, how it always ends. Couldn't keep anyone sane. Every waking day is a re-run of the last day and over and over. Thoughts like these are a mind fuck to my mind, I've lost 25% of my vocab, I'm experiencing tip on your tongue sensations. Feels like Alzheimer's at an early age. Just can't remember. I just know, so then in retrospect I can already predict the ending before the beginning. I like to compare myself to Colin from Abundance of Katherines, Except he's pretty happy in the end, and it's fictional. This isn't a creative cry, this is just a story of a lonely guy.






"But everyone I know reaches a point where they throw out their arms and go beserk for a while; otherwise you never know what your limits are. I was just trying to find mine. " - Robert Smith.

The Call of Ktulu

Interesting day indeed, begins with our period 1 euro test, oh so dreaded. I studied hard, you studied hard, they studied hard. everybody did. I take it back, not everybody did. I sure as hell did.Anyways, the test had some questions I pretty much expected . Must thank Anagaby for the chapter 21 review thing. Anyways, such questions included such questions such as what was "hegemony." There was also another a question that asked about the person led Spain to independence who was Jose De Sann Martin I had no idea I didn't even read about the guy. There was also a question about what country Napoleon failed to conquer which was obviously Britain. Other questions that really suck.
Then again I've been trying to make coughing noises to get attention hehe.
Then comes Chem, never knew she despised Ralph that much, haha, SEATING CHANGE. Yay. Then again, Claustrophia kind of sucks around people you don't just dontwant to be near.
Anywho, in 3rd we were just doing our earthquake 'walter lord" thing.

4th we ran a snake and played basketball to the extent where we got raped again. 16-1. We always make 1 shot, and this time it goes to Wilson. So horrible, and if carlos stopped putting us down.
Yom wasn't here today we had a black substitute so me michael and alex just did our work and talked randomly. Not much since that sub kept saying we might have to be moved and such.
By the day such an exciting thing happened today, Cindy got detention for being tardy too much. Justice is served.
So right now I'm downloading Audiosurf, it caught my attention. Basically it's like Guitar Hero or.. Stepmania, except you play to your own songs. I'll post a video.

Gray or Grey

Needs one warm toasty healthy hug to lighten the mood.

300th Post

This is my 300th land mark post. Hurray. Actually it's the 301th, I just forgot and posted the "The tables turn" one.. by accident. So I deleted that and this'll be the 300th. Pretty slick thinking, pretty slick. 300 posts is a lot. In comparision to a army, it's a decent sized army that could conquer a store. Blog dates back to 7th grade, when I was bored and had.. not much homework. I remember the month I started was.. April 2007. I've been persistent blogging every day, until now where I just usually blog the amount half of a month (15) or a few more. Anyways, today was an interesting, but this week is excruciatingly torturous. This is the last week and then the week after wards is finals week. Anyways, today in first we were taking notes of the chapter 21 about napoleon. Napoleon is one crazy little fugger. There's not much to this period except we were taking notes. The class was 2boring. So I threw my pen at xiao, then she kept it, and gave it back which I threw back 2 seconds later. Then she really kept it. LEWL. As we were talking about Napoleon and then somehow Carlos started laughing when Wong mentioned the "stand up for themselves." In Chem, we just did our Finals review sheet which is kind of easy I just forget what to do. It's just me and Ivan working, he doesn't seem like the type that tries very hard in school but he's not bad in Chem. Later, Xiao comes up and takes my "Abundance of Katherine" book and then reads it. that's like wtf. I wanted to return that.
Anyways.. walking to 3rd period was pretty hilarious, I was walking past wilson tang, and i was like "hey baby" and then this girl in front of me turns around, who I have no memory of at all..gives me a "wtf" face. Haha so funny. In 3rd we had to interview people "survivors of the 2008 summer earthquake." I won't talk about that in it's entirety except mention it because it was really stupid. really.
In P.e we just played basketball, and I won't go to lengths and describe every aspect, every fugging move that made us get slaughtered. I was shooting air balls so much, bad game bad game. But Wilson Tang finally stops jumping when he shoots. Big Hurray. My current memory of the game was the score was like, 14-5. I only remembered us scoring 5 points.
Then I went to MESA during lunche, and the most funniest shit ever was that Carlos went on Ms.Cardoza's computer and gave everyone (mostly) that had D's .. A's or so he said, But i saw him on the computer grading window.
5th period was pretty not cool today, we were reviewing chapter 3.
Yes this is my 300th post and I talked about my day in its entirety, I hardly do that. Anyways, I must finish my euro, I NEED TO PARTY HARDY NOW.
Oh right I forgot to mention, It was Chinese New Years.

Saturday Morning

Why, besides mocking Maroon 5's song "sunday morning" the title also speaks for it self, because yes it is saturday and yes rain is falling. What a spoof of that song. Maybe one day i'll sing a wonderful duet with ken with that song. I decided during the summer I'm going to take spanish 1 because I don't want to feel like a loser sophmore taking spanish 2. I'm suppose to be ahead of the game, heck I'm not going to get anywhere in life being in Spanish 1 as a 10th grade. Maybe I'll take it with corrina. Anywho, I don't know and I shouldn't be thinking ahead I should be focusing on chapter 21, Age of Napolean.

I had a really cool away message about me and napolean I made up but I forgot
I'll post it later.

Glazed

Yeah, I've been getting lazy to produce a good post. Either I'm out of ideas or I'm just too lazy. I'm also very sad, I got a 10 1/2 on my Euro test. That's like epic fail to me. I tried so hard but on the other hand I know a lot of people that had it worst, and normally I don't give a shit what people get but myself but this time.. I wont mention names but if memory serves me right I think she's a winner in my book >:] and I think she'll be reading this. Damn, it's raining. I LIKE IT WHEN IT RAINS. Rain captures essence you can't find in the sun. In another point I'm not sure if its personal choice but I prefer a dark cloudy day, there must be one over my head all the time in that case. I'm also getting a lot of mental misfires and getting a lot of "tip of the tongue experiences" which I don't really know why but the first thing I assume is I have Alzheimer's then again who in the world has Alzheimer's when their a fugging teenager. I also inch very close to 300 posts! I remember when I started it was so long ago I was the coolest guy ever because I had a blog and wanted to read back on my crazy memories I'd acquire throughout life. Here I am now at 297 and about to hit 300 and a landmark in blogging *Not really landmark*. Everyone else that made a blog recently can all go fuck themselves if all they blog about is some horrible band "known as" Varsity Fan Club. People need a reality check, They suck ass at making music and shouldn't be obsessed over. Just some white boys looking for fame. Back 2 years ago when I made this blog I didn't have crap like that. Blogging now went from my unique trait to a stupid trend. Talk about something creative. That's a downfall of society today, too caught up in pop culture.

The Guillotine Part 2

I studied so bad last night, I knew it was because of all my laziness it haunts me. Today was the test, and I know it paid off, maybe not in time to keep my A. My percentage dropped for Nagaoka. I never felt like such a piss-off. I need to redeem myself. During the test today, some questions I just didnt know, I wanted 15/15 but I'm sure I missed one. When I'm trying to get a test answer from either xiao or carlos, THEY DONT LOOK OVER, So I have to cough loudly so they'd fugging look. I'm beat. I should've tried harder. My dumb luck won't save my grades this time. I guess we got good burgers for yuca, better than tacos.

Now to finish what's left.

gg

we lost in basketball, 15-2, with a team of carlos,ken,me daniel and wilson, we lost to jona, peter, vincent, raphael, anthony..




Very disappointing

Deep Dive

Assure me I'm not insane.

Oh the tranquil fotos.

Well, the turtle picture was taken at Santa Anita mall (winter break) I found it on my cam, im pretty sure I didnt post this yet., this turtle reminds me of everything good in life, because turtles never fail to amaze, just like that one story, the turtle and the hare. This turtle is my inspiration.
The pocky was from tonight at Valley Supermarket, stocking up on Chinese New Year foodz. Pweheh. I just couldn't resist buying some.
And the green beans were from Lucky because I thought the cover can was hilarious.

Hysteric

I really hate little children' tales of heroic sense and the right thing to do. It gives you a sense of idea growing up with false hope. Why do people interpret things so naively then again? Would I prefer being mentally impaired but being happy and naive and being the genius and knowing the cold dark truth of every thing, I really wouldn't know how to answer that question either. Why couldn't there be a neutral point of view to everything and why does everything have to be so blunt. Well in any defense, a person on the edge of the world leaves for himself and looks for success and ends up at a crossroad, each pointing different directions but all lead up to the same place. 3 of them are shortcuts to the destination but all 3 is treacherous and the sake of your life isn't guaranteed, but the fourth path leads to where you want, but is as safe as spitting in the trashcan.where to go? I'm still at the crossroads. The truth is, there is no shortcut to success. Success is a long road, it reminds of me pokemon and the trio, or foursome traveling somewhere, and meeting people along the way. Except that series never ends though. No success doesn't belong to fame or cash, it belongs to accomplishment. And sometimes an accomplishment is labeled as just giving in.

Hi Live Journal

Live Journal Live Journal Live Journal ! I like live journal ! Apparently I'll manage two blogs because I'm an

"OG"

Original Ganksta. Each for separate ideas or criticisms. I don't like LJ for one reason is you can't choose fonts and have to do the HTML crap, which is utter bullshit. But I like my layout, It has snowmen. It's like become an alternative myspace, but worse because you list your thoughts ! Yeah the only reason I'll continue blogging here is because from 7th grade and beyond I've used blogger. Rendering me no choice but to continue blogger. Oh and I'm not linking my LJ.

The Same Deep Water as You

Brief updater, Let's see, my book "the stand" and "Abundance of Katherines" so I renewed it online, instead of walking to renew which is so cool because I never knew that was ever possible or never cared to try. Besides that fact, it is a 3 day holiday due to MLK's birthday. We need more black men like him to give us holidays and I find it amusing his birthday is so near to Obama's inauguration day just one day after the holiday is observed. Finals are coming up for a freshmen like me I wouldn't know what they are but Im guessing their teacher issued. And perhaps I may also learn to cook this summer, my mom says "I'm ready" wait no I said I'm ready but I can just assume. the weather has also gotten considerably hotter, I don't see frost outside my window anymore anyways. this is a disappointing winter *thumb down* I want to join ITP Basketball, I musta missed it. And Yom gave us 10 problems for break. How sad.

Welcome Home

I'm too lazy to blog. my grades are barely holding on, I need to hold it for another 3 weeks if i try. but i never try >:| Maybe 9th grade is important. Because I learned my lesson, I need to study for wong's test and already started my doing my chem periodicially. I guess I know what to stop doing, is to stop playing world of warcraft or playing dota. Quite difficult though but I can't help myself,I just like owning noobs. If I can last another 3 weeks my grade will restart. A glad restart is appreciated although I don't anticipate switching my elective because I like my computer class I like the people in there and I prefer not to get put into a retarded class which is the scariest shit that can ever happen.

We'll see.

my name is earl

The way I walk is nothing but dark and lonely times.

Fink

Winter break is over.
I feel kind of happy because I hate working at home, then again I'll miss sleeping in again. Time stops for no one really.

Again

And I'm just sitting playing my bass all day. Playing the mellow solo for "Orion", and "To Live is to Die"

Deviously Familar

I've been wasting a lot of time. I should be studying for euro, even though I seldom blog, I'm doing it now because I feel like procrastinating. Like the saying goes, hard work pays off over time but laziness ALWAYS pays off now. It's true. Im mindlessly burning time. So I checked out An Abundance of Katherines and The Stand, so far the stand being the 1100 page book it is about a superflu code name "project blue" which is a government created flu that accidentally leaked. Symptoms include regular flu symptoms, except vaccines are not possible because the flu mutates everytime its fought to a new strain. So yeah its basically your 1100 page long Horror apocalyptic book.


test tomorrow I better pass. May Xiao have mercy on me.

Leroy Jenkins

In response to Xiao, SOME OF US ARE DOING EURO. Anyways, besides doing euro I was playing dota with gary, phillip and kevin zhu and his bro. Lets see my final score. 2-25. when i was level 11, kevin was lvl 25, Im like GUYS RUSH LETS KILL THEM ALL, so i go alone and i find myself facing 30 creeps, and no help. So basically, I died 25 times and killed twice, kevin zhu got like what, 25 kills 3 deaths. T_T then im like everybody gank mid ! and i died too.

Then we played with ken using him instead of kevin's bro who quit and I went to eat for a bit, when i came back i got kicked for afking too long. LOL. Fucking came back 5 secs after getting kicked. gahhh. I would've leroyed everyone.
Back to normal talk, nothing much to do just waiting for my two books (I placed a hold), The Stand by Stephen King which Xiao found, thanks dogg. And Abundance of Katherines which looks good too.

procrastinating

Resolution failed.